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wahh seyy!
best!
aku mau larilari!(:
&ystd.
i went to CINTAKU's house for open house like that.
i went with Sofia.
aku malas nak elaborate more.
because im kindda in a BADDD mood skarang!
but i can tell you.
its was FUN ystd with Sofia&the food was
SUPERRR laa!(:
macam my mother nyer masakan!(:
ahah(:

back to what i want to post.
why cnt parents understand me.
i mean why are they like some. . .
i want them to love me for who i am.
NOT what i am.
okeh.
maybe a bit is what i am.
lets get straight to the point.
mum nows about me&CINTAKU.
she was all BIZARRE at first.
then she was okeh.
she said boyfriends are boyfriends.
studies are studies.
concentrate on studies first.
then boyfriends.
okeh.
at least at that moment i felt like she understood me.
she dnt mind.
as long as my priority is STUDIES.
I DID PUT STUDIES FIRST!
then.
ystd.
just because i cnt accompany her at home.
& i went to CINTAKU house she went all.
NAGGY!.
EVERY SINGLE THING i do
she will always points out to CINTAKU.
like for example.
when i smile or laught for no reason.
she will be like.
"Why so happy? OH! i know! euu got to see your SHAFIQ right?
me also forget!"
hey!
i was just smiling for fun.
& everytime i go near her she will be talking about
CINTAKU.CINTAKU.CINTAKU.
its irritating me.
this is pathetic.
i just want to be happy for ONCE with him
and every thing was okeh.
until mum finds out about this!
HEY!
at least CINTAKU care for me okeh?!
he gave me the support that i need.
at least i got someone who is so concern about me.
&I LOVE HIM!
i just want my mother to understand me,
just as well as how CINTAKU understand me.
he's like my EVERYTHING.
just put yourself in my shoes.
would you like it if i DID the same to you and dad?
you wouldn't would you?
i don't too.
i know you want me to concentrate on my studies.
I WILL!
I PROMISE I WILL MAKE YOU HAPPY.
I PROMISE I WILL MAKE YOU PROUD.
just for this once.
let me have him in my life.
because he completes the puzzle in my life okeh?
understand me.
i cnt afford to lose him NOW.
so what if there is a GAZILLION guys out there
when i grow up?!
i STILL want him okeh?
like i said.
I WILL LOVE HIM NOMATTER WHAT.
just like how you love dad!
so.
stop making a fuss out of it!